For years, before I taught yoga, I worked as a nanny.
I sort of fell into it & for the most part, I loved it. I was paid extremely well, had great health benefits & took care of wonderful children. I spent my "work" day at the beach or the playground...it was way better than any other job I previously had.
But there was a big back story behind being a nanny. I had fallen into the work, but only because I had ended a relationship, lost a job & had to start over. It was a back story filled with hurt & anger.
When I would meet people & they would ask "so, what do you do?". And I would answer "I'm a nanny... but..." And then I would go on to tell them how I had gone to College, worked in Social Services & Event Planning & how I pretty much just landed in this job without planning it. I felt I was being judged for my job choice & that I needed to justify it, & my abilities, to complete strangers.
At some point, I stopped caring what strangers thought about my job choice. At some point, I became confident about what I did, the reasons why I did it & why I liked it so much. At some point I let go of the hurt & anger & the history that had led me to being a nanny & I just embraced what I was doing.
At some point, I realized I was writing the story & it didn't have to be one of hurt & anger & justification anymore. I closed the book on the old story & started to write a new one.
Sure, there were people who walked away from me when I told them what I did, but that was their story. The choice to feel judged & the need to justify - that was all me. I realized that every time I brought up the back story, I was re-writing it. In the same way. Over & over again. And in the process, giving it more power & energy.
I periodically meet people who are still writing & rewriting the same old story. A story of hurt, or deception, wrong-doing - real or perceived. They are focusing their energy on what has happened in the past & they keep sticking with the same story. And every time they tell that story, they bring up that old, negative energy.
It took me quite a while to realize that's what I was doing. Writing & re-writing the same old story. Giving power to the past & bringing up that negative energy.
That was all before yoga.
It was Yoga that helped me realize that I could close the book on the old story & start writing a new one any time I wanted. With each new day...with each new moment even. The old story may have been powerful, but my ability to write a new one gives me the power in this moment.
What's your story? Are you stuck in the past - giving it power over the present? Writing & re-writing?
What good things are happening in your life right now? What great things are about to happen?
What story do you want to write?
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