Last night after class, a student stopped me & thanked me for class. She had very kind words to say & I was touched - I always am when I hear from students. It reaffirms for me the reason why I teach yoga.
I was still very much in the zone of teaching. I thanked her & said simply "it's a gift" - meaning, my teaching.
I didn't think about it all until later. There were other students leaving & students coming in for the next class.
When I did think about it much later, I felt almost embarrassed about what I said...about saying "it's a gift". There were other people around who heard our exchange & I suddenly became self-conscious & concerned that what I said might have come across as egotistical or insincere.
For me, when I teach & am really "in the zone", it is a gift. It's effortless. I am filled with pure joy & love for what I am doing & the people that I am with. It's not something that comes from me it's something that flows through me - it comes from source, the divine.
Wayne Dyer talks about it. About sitting down to write his books, being connected to source & having words effortlessly come to him. How easy & simple it is, when you are tapped in.
It is a gift. It's the feeling of receiving a gift & then sharing it. And the most effort is in staying open & receptive & trusting in what you a receiving. This is what I feel when I teach. This is how I felt when I was thanked by a student.
It was later, when I started "thinking" about it, that I felt that twinge of self-doubt.
The irony of all this is that in class I was speaking about the youtube video "Jessica's Daily Affirmations". If you haven't seen it, it's a 3 year old girl, in her pajamas, in front of a mirror, saying "I am great! I love everything! I can do anything good!"...and she goes on like this for almost a minute.
She's still tapped into source. She still trusts herself & all the gifts that she is receiving. She trusts that she is great (we all are!) No self-doubt. Not at all self-conscious. That's something, unfortunately, we are taught to feel as we grow older.
When you love what you do & are sharing it with others, it is a gift. And we are all gifted in different ways. It is something to embrace, to enjoy, to love & be grateful for. It is something to share & simply feel great about.
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